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I got results of matura. It was 4 + 2 extra points for taking higher level, which is great even though i was hoping for total of 7 points.

And than i got sick, 37,8 . Plan for tomorrow, visit the doctor and stay in bed <_<

So after 2 years of struggling what i want and constant failure when taking in material progress i finally came back from first part of English Matura exam.

The exam was made out of 3 parts.
1. Gap fill, word formation,etc - first impression was quite good but after reading this and this i found out i took to much time to solve all the assignments. There were some typical phrases that i wanted to write (and i'd get a point) but did not because i got caught in the silly thinking about times. But yeah i suppose i'll get at least 70% of all possible points :P
2. Hearing - well if i'd listened the recording on headphones i'd get all answers right, but i didn't. I'm very bed when it some to listening a recording in a classroom or any other big space like that so i kinda screwed it. I failed to hear one answer and i probably missed another point here for not answering correctly as well. Though the most painful part was B part of this section since they were talking about crocodiles and i knew most of the answerers upfront (since i'm mad about biology) which made me listened this part half-heartedly.
3. Essay - Get ready for complaining. First part was OK. I choose to write about Laughter being the best medicine (while most of other students chose something about Freedom, i don't even remember the title :O) and i knew i won't use a lot of time for that so i decided to begin with second part first. Now here is a shocker. Guess what we had to write about?! One of the books we needed to read was The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time and it was actually quite pleasant read about autistic boy talking from first persons point of view (i should write about all the mistakes i found in the book one day though xD it was real fun finding them :D). Anyway the instructions we got was "Discuss Christopher's way of solving problems" (Christopher is the main character of the book, the autistic boy). And the thing is that he's not solving problems any differently than we do. The only issues that can be pointed out is 1) he's not taking in account that all people can lie 2) he cannot predict future. As for the rest is logical and predictable when solving them. But i think we all are like that, or at least i am o.O Either way i was watching in those instructions like an idiot and after i realized that 5 minutes passed already i knew i'm doomed. Writing essays was always my strong point and just reading the title/main question/etc that the essay should be based on i got the whole story /discussion of it in less than a minute (usually right after i finished reading the initial line) but this time i used 1:10 hour to write something that i was exacted to write in 50min and i though i will not use more than 30 min.
So when i returned to the first part of 3rd section i rushed it a bit but overall i still think i wrote it better than this bloody discussion about Christpher's way of solving problems (hello, how the hell could they come up with something as stupid as that o.O)

I'm actually cursing people who came up with it all day long already its is really the only thing i'm seriously bothered with. But overall i'm quite glad with how everything turned out. Now all that is left is oral part that will happen sometime after 16. June and than i'll have to wait until 13.7 to get final official results.

Well the hardest part is behind me and on the other hand screw it, as my first uni wish i wrote Japanese single subject. It's new program starting this year and with only 30 open paces for regular students and only 30 applied :D which means as long as i pass the exam i'm in (which is more or less already done :3)
At this point i just wonder when will i actually realize that and when i do will i actually be as happy as i'm right now exacting to be o.O (yeah i'm getting in a weird state again, and i love it :P).

Have not updated this blog for ages again (but obviously i was leaching lots XD9
So i've screwed another year of my life. Failed my math exam, lost my official status (if i break my leag now i'll pay millions for doctors to fix it <_<). Not that i care much, its rare for me to get sick or hurt myself enough to sick professional help, but my parents (read my mom) is persistent on me getting a status. Oh well i know i can't freeload at my home for ever. So either i'll get myself on the long list of jobless people or buy myself student status for another year (and not the one that means i'm on Uni now <_<). The good side of this year was that i became fully aware of the fact that I actually want to study, oh yeah Japanese x English sounds yummy, but i'll probably decide fro Japanese x Russian (either way i'm only tempted by languages) and my dreams, long forgotten one, came back again. Not that i forgot about it, its just that i had no inspiration. Writing i.e. dreams to become a writer. All i'm talking about for the last 3 weeks is how the hell could i get myself a status of intendant artist. I want it, i yarn for it, its making me droll and i'm all wet just thinking about it. Getting that status would surely bring me ideal life. I'd do what i want and i could help my friend on her way to become mangaka 24/7. So my next step is, most likely, visiting ministry of culture, getting that freaking student status again, find myself a job through student service, enforcing daily routine on me (made for (for half a year) of math learning (later all 5 subject for Matura exam), writing and paper reading as in real paper reading, learning Japanese and ritually banishing laziness out of my ass). Punch line: Dreaming about dreams will not just bring them to you. Cancel the dreams, make them disappear. But do change your plan/goal for the future consisting of what now your non existing dreams are. Having dreams is stupid, but changing them into your what i'll do next will bring you a lot closer to them than dreaming ever will. P.S.: since this blog is pretty much about my boring life (ie. another loser that is developing into perfect image of worthless otaku)i can't do much with it, or better said i don't even feel tempted to, but lately i have this big urge of making discussion orientated music blog, any idea where should i make one (i kind of don't want to make it here since LJ is blocking most of plugins for track listening).

Yes I won it, I won it, I WON IT, I FREAKING WON IT!!!!!!!
*tears of joy of super big fangirl*

Tthe Senki Senki Momotama volume 1 which is SIGNED is mine. Bwahahahaha XD
Just look at it how pretty it is *tears of joy*
THe real question is whether i'll really get it since this is teh first auction i held through mandarake.

Nyuuu and its so cheap.. and its singed by the great Chrono Nanae.... i can die happy now -.- (ok not quite.. i still need to get some signed stuff from Kajiura XD)

Seriously, and on big one. i haven't spended as much money as i do these days for at least 2 years (and i'm out of work and totally broke <.<).

I managed to get in contact with one person at Japan that is buying lots of stuff for me.
I got obsessed with Chrono Nanae all over again, i'd say the same for Higuri You and Kouga Yung but actions of these 2 where not so exiting in last few months while Chrono-sensei released her artbook, started new series, i discovered a bunch of doujinshis she made (and believe me when i say the number is not small for a mangaka like Chrono is) fandom started moving, I finally started working on scanlations again and what might be most important s that a friend from Amerika came with whom i fangirled over Chrono Nanae (i have friends who like her art and stories but nobody appreciates her as much as i do and sanada). To end all this blabering what most inspired me to write this is the release of Paka RUN manga 3 (or was it 4 o.O) days ago. Chrono only made story but thats good enough (though i think she made one picture that is on the flip but i don't dare to claim that since i've never seen such CG art from her while it doesn't look like Nakabayashis as well - the more i look in that picture the more i'm convinced its Chrono that draw it XD). But more than this i happened to have damn good luck to order Paka RUN at mangaoh store who just happened to have Peace Maker premium box. Its something i wanted for ages and it was sold out everywhere and i have no idea how the hack they still had one.. either way i bought the last piece they had and now i have the whole Peace Maker manga in japanese and the premium DVD :3 .. i just need to buy vol.1 of Peace Maker Kurogane now and my collection will be perfect (exuding anime and broaches that came with vol. 1 Peacemaker Kurogane (accept if i wing the auction XD)).. gosh i'm silly....

The punch line... Never make promises like "Oh i'll get you the piggy from limited edition if i see one again" as you'll end up with 3 copies of the same volume at home -.-;;

Yeah so i guess i'm getting more and more exited about this :3 a little tiny secret is waiting for you at... well you know where (if you've bothered reading one post before this).

I decided i really like Kita Shuhei....and why? Well first of all i really liked the OP for Persona -trinity soul- and i liked his cover of Kimi no Kikou song, and the cover songs on his latest mini-aulbm are not bad either (in fact i might like them even more than originals -.-). But that usually isn't the reason i write about something like that .... i've been following o his blog for some time now and even though i can't understand half of it i'm still enjoying it because almost every post contains at least one cat picture (yes indeed i'm a cat maniak XD).

Oh and i got totally into Kajiura Yuki again 8not that i ever really stopped XD).
She celebrated her 43rd birthday (though it seems she got a stomachache), but the present that people at CPM were making it for few months now made her really happy. Generally speaking i think she's much better now than int eh past. She's not so shy anymore (well corroborations forced her to come up front - but i'm glad she got affected with "lets have LIVE" disease that REVO posses XD)so i dare to guess that this is far from eh last we heard from her... not as a anime/drama/movie/musical music composer... but as an active musician co-creating Japanese popular music ("popular" in sense of "normally/commonly" listened music, some people dare to totally ignore stuff like OSTs o.O)

Well i quited most of online communities. I still take part in some of them but really rarely. IN those that i do are mostly scanlation orientated.
Basically i'm working on 3 different projects atm, working at slow peace but 1000 times faster than int eh past year XD.

But what i'm most part of right now is at my own scanlation group. We started ages ago (ok last first April, but that is more than one year ago) we made barely any progress and truthfully the only thing that was on the page were projects we release on the opening day XD. We had a bunch of problems with the base hosting server, the layout was poor and i felt miserable for letting people in the group while they done nothing (it was a lot more fun where only the 2 of the founding members were in). With time i discovered that people that are really your friends will help you, the rest are useless. Outsiders are useful as well (meaning non-Slovenian people) and like i said the rest are useless, accept for one person among 100s <.<
Well we managed to find designer and a coder to make a pretty site and we moved to a new server so we won't have problems on that field for long time.
I've done lots of work in last 2 months as well since i found new love in scanlating.

I proudly present you

For now there is only one new project.. in Slovene ... but for all people that cannot read Slovene i can tell you that in next 14 days or so we'll release few nice calendars and at least one artbook for which you don't need to know Slovene (sine there is no translation at all XD)

As i said above i'm involved in 3 different scanaliton projects, chibi R.I.P. is one of them but i'm afraid that with 1st October i'll have to limit myself on chibi R.I.P. only -.-;; it seems i'll move out of my house and when that happens i'd like to start working on my life seriously, i am already but only half as fast as i want to. I'll miss all the people i'm working with at m if that happens >.<

I think Tuesday will be the day. The day when lots of things will change -.-;;

My regular income will be cut down and i'll leave heartbroken because i will not see the little kid anymore. Yup part of my life will be finished just like that -.-

My primary schooldays were never filled with joy because of several reasons and ever since I've realized that this is not the way it suppose to be i wished to have some people who i could actually call friends and not "friends".
I failed to meet people like that in primary school and i had no real luck in high school as well - or so i though for almost 2 years.
It was in the beginning of 3rd year in high school when i started training ju-jutsu and somehow, because of it, associate with a certain girl who i actually meet in fist year of high school and said "Hi!" to her from time to time. We found lots common things and in no time we ended up best friends.
Meanwhile i took part in Slovenian anime/manga fandom more often and met another girl. She's a total opposite of my best-friend (so they don't really fit together well) but i feel great around her - she's not someone i could call best-friend just like that (if nothing else, only one person can have that title and it will always stay in the hands of the same person), but there is still something in her that most people fail to see. I know that talking with her for 5 or 10 minutes will give you the image of air-headed girl that cares about guy and parties only, but like i said people fail to see deeper.

With both of them i have no regular contact anymore (i kind of feel at fault for that) - since we're not visiting the same school anymore and i'm busy with my own depression and despair (one seems to share the same fate as me as for the other - well i really can't tell whats she's doing o.O). But even so i know that they are the 2 persons with whom i'll share friendship that i can call everlasting. I'm sure they feel the same; but since humans would not be humans if there wouldn't always exist a tiny seed of fear, doubt and disbelieve.
Since i have not spoken to them for more than year and half i asked myself that question of loyalty and fatefulness from time to time. I happened rarely and the question disappointed the moment it appeared. A rather natural thing that happens to lots of people in same situation as i am therefore i was so happy when i managed to meet this "second" girl yesterday. Talking with her like the last time we met was 2 days ago really felt good. Wordless confirmation of "We'll be friends for ever" really is the best.
You can call me naive or whatever you want and i know that life is long and lots of things can happen, however both of them were first person i could call friends, not "friends", which makes them really special to me and that will not change even if we end up archenemies.
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Since i'm still drooling all over the kittens a little update T-T
Like every year this year Mr. Death came to visit us again. One kitten was found dead 2 days ago in the morning.
Cause of death: unknown.
And it seems there is another kitten that will die because of disease or something (today its the second time he's sick already - he's much better now, but in the morning he looked like a dead cat <.<) he's a bit thiner and smaller than other cats from his bread already and i've never seen a cat at our place to go through 2 diseases at such early stage and live till adulthood -.-

well i was all hyped over the fact that we have 5 kittens at home now - but OMG we found the kittens of the other cat as well - actually she brought them to us. And believe it or not its 5 of them o.O

This is like the first after a very long time that we'll have 12 cats at home (well 13 if one cat decided to come back - he disappeared at the same time last year as well -.-) 10 little ones and 2 adults - OMG OMG OMG OMG ... this is gonna be so much fun X3

So another years is around and new breads of kittens were born.
2 female cats and 2 breads. As last year and the year before one is taken good care of them and the second... well most likely not. The first one is obviously having lots of kittens (since she soooooooo skinny >.<) and the other... well not. We knew where the kittens of the first were for a long time and not from the second.

This year we were quite lucky (?) we actually know when they were born (well at least the first bread), it was on 1st May.
And today we decided its time for them to leave mommies nest and come out to the world.
Since all the family really likes cats but i'm the only one overobsessed with them, they said i should go up there in the hay and do the "dirty" job... (in the morning.. before 7 <.<) well anything for the kittens X3.
Until 2 days ago we though that there were 4 kittens, but i found out later that there are in fact 5, we just never really saw all 5 of them since the mother way always with them and they are all the same black color.
Oh you should see those little balls of fur... soooooooo shweet and cute and nyuh nyuh and myuuu.... .... i really need to post some pictures of them... they are soooooo adorable X3

Ok just a bit of blabbering and over excitement >.

So ever since i found out that Kajiura Yuki will do OSTs for Kara no Kyoukai movies i'm fangirling over them.
I never liked TYPE-MOON but anything for Kajiura.
Well after finding out that she will as well compose ending themes and create a new project of them called Kalafina the fandom really went crazy.
It was said that new singers will sing the songs and that Kajiura choose 2 new vocals in audition where more than 30.000 people participated.
Well after "oblivious" was released people forgot about that and started speculating who the sings are. Since there were pictures int eh booklet of the single without singers covering their faces people come to conclusion that one is Wakana (teh same as in FictionJunction WAKANA) and the other one is Keiko (the same as in FictionJunction KEIKO, and the same Keiko that is in Sound Horizon, she also has solo career under Keiko Oda). and since both members are from FictinJunction and since 4 members were still unrevealed people said they must be at least 2 more from FictionJunction.
But like i said, people forgot about audition. And now when 4th ending title was announce (BTW its ARIA) and is also played on the official page,all 4 members were revealed as well.
So the 3rd and 4th member are Maya and Hikaru.
You can see the bishojos on the official Kalafina page.
Well since the singers are known now i guess everybody will forget about them, as usual, and star fangirling over Kajiura again, as usual (i kinda fell bad for the singers are they are never adored like Kajiura is, Kalafina is rare exaction where vocals were on the front line for soooooooo ling, Eito Eri was one exaction as well -.- but thats about it)

And i planed to write about my grandfather who fell of the bike yesterday and hurt himself badly (he could die either because he well, or if we wouldn't treat him the second he came home >.<). I was really worried about him, but the news.... gosh i really can easily forget about things <.

Subtitle: Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull

If i say "I saw Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, mwahahaha" what would you do?
I'd say i don't believe it.
Me who is not interested in Hollywood for years now, me who things that adventures roles do not suit Harrison Ford, me who never really liked Indiana Jones to begin with, etc.
But its actually true o.O indeed its true -.-;;
Yesterday when i was leaving my working place i knew that my employer will go out into to movies or something. Indeed she did, but she surprised me today when she said that she'd like to take her son with her to see the new Indiana Jones movie, if he'd like to see it.
Truthfully i'd look at hear as an idiot thinking "there is new Idiana Jones ?! That stuff is still popular?! o.O" if it weren't for shidaime  's post that i've read this morning.
So since there is "Skull" in the title it was natural for the kid to want to see it (even though he had no idea what so ever who Indiana Jones is). Before he even said yes his mom asked me if i want to come with them and i replayed that rather not as i'm not interested in Hollywood movies that much, but later i was caught by the kid himself. He asked if i'll come with them (its rare from him to ask me something like that) and since he said he wants me to go with them i had to go (how could i ever say "no" to request like that -.-;;)
I don't really regret going with them as i don't go to movies a lot these days, even less for free X3 but i'm really disappointed with the things going on in the movie.
Heloooooo what the hack happened with the "old" Jones? Oh i loved lots of stuff in the movie and it certainly holds the spirit of the rest of the movies (the car scene was just marvelous.. really, i wouldn't mind watching that part again XD) but please what the hack is with this middimensional creatures (or whateva they were called). Suuuuuuure whatever he does is usually highly-classified-top-secret because exposing it to the public might cause blah, blah, blah .... but some "between spaces creatures" ... oh please.
Did the creators really ran out of imagination and needed to put in something chlishe like "non-human" race?!!
As much as i actually enjoyed the movie itself (even the fact that he got married, and the son and all other stuff that don't really fit his image - and i mean that with out any sarcasm) this middimentional creatures made it the worst of worst <.<
I really wouldn't mind if this were the first Indiana Jones movie ever done, but its not, its something with tradition like James Bond is and i think i really will never understand how could anybody even think of putting something like this in Indiana Jones movie <.<

P.S.: Since Jones married now does this mean this is the last movie? i really can't imagine and new movie without him charming another new totally fresh girl.

So i managed to get tagged by
shidaime
  - something i was trying to avoid for ages but now i'm tagged >.< congrats shidaime you're the first person to tag me X3
so lets get over with:

List ten things that recently made you happy, then tag ten people to do the same.

1. The package i got 4 days ago form Japan X3 i got 2 adorably cute bacteria from Moyashimon series and 2nd DVD form the same title
2. Fact that i got inspired to write again (its first after 1 year and half)
3. The mare though that there is a chance i can go to Japan this summer
4. Discovery of one writer at aarin (no she's not writing harcore yaoi fics XD) - her writing style... ahhh its so gorgeous that i needed to stop in the middle and start squeeking that is to cute to be true.
5. All the Oofuri memes that can be found at
oofuri_etc
  - they are hilarious (ok oofuri is hilarious to begin with X3)
6. Release of Persona -trinity soul- - Breakin' Through by Shuuhei Kita. both songs on the CD are plain gorgeous. I fell in love in the TV version and i was really looking forward to official release.
7. The progress of chibi R.I.P. comeback, it started to move with light speed.
8. A worm hug that i have honer to receive sometimes from my baby, i highly doubt that there is anything prettier than to get that from 6 year old boy with angel face and character of a devil.
9. New sample songs at Hokuto no Ken official site. YEY, YEZ, MOG..... FJ KAORI is back!!!! oh i just hope that there will be a bit more of WAKANA and KEIKO in the future (I never really liked ASUKA for some reason o.O)
10. The discovery of Flash - time to start playing with it XD

I can't really tag anybody accept
hettar7
  so here you go hattar-chan.. you're tagged XD

and the sharing part:
i should post this in all the azian music sharing comm that i'm part of but i'm just to lazy to do that so.
I bought this and ripped it myself. I highly recommend it! Overall i was a bit disappointed over the album, but this is one of rare debut albums where the author mixes so many different styles together. Generally looking it Jpop, but you have drops of every other style in there to. Its just to bad that not all of them are as gorgeous as Requiem～祈り and 宇宙に咲く[btw its Sora ni Saku not Uchuu ni Saku, there is furigana next to the kanji so the confusion is clear now](and there are 3 intro like songs, which sukcs -.-)
OK.. i admit, just because i don't' fancy 3 full length songs from those 14 i'm ranting over this... gos i'm really to demanding <.<

Artist: コミネリサ a.k.a. lisa / Komine Lisa/Risa a.k.a. lisa
Tittle: ニジイロノコトノハ / Nijiro No Kotonoha
Gener: Jpop

Tracklist:
1.Prologue
2.tears
3.もしもあなたが泣きたいなら / Moshimo Anata ga Naki Tai Nara
4.I'm So Lonesome I Could Laugh!
5.宇宙に咲く / Sora ni Saku
6.Will
7.Interlude I
8.神様のいたずら / Kamisama no Itazura
9.TIME IS ON MY SIDE
10.Requiem～祈り / Requiem～Inori
11.雨が止むまで / Ame ga Yamu Made
12.Still Be Lovin' You
13.Interlude II
14.ニジイロノコトノハ / Nijiro No Kotonoha
+scans with crappy edit <.<

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One of my rare "public" sharing here at my LJ ... these will get more often but they'll be f-locked XD

i just realized i have not done any update for ages.

anyway today i was remaking my playlist and puted all the newly downloded stuff on it. and of course tehre were some soundtracks that i've heard them seperately (like: Murder princess, Claymore, Darker than back, El Casador) and some j-music ( RIP SLAYME, ZWEI) some old stuff that i downladed just now (Heartsdales, Ninagawa Junko, etc) and accidantly i've downloaded 2 single CD from "meister".

yeah i know when i say "meister" it doesn't sound that familiour right^^. THe best thing you could guess it that it might mean master... and it does in german though (but not as master-servent relationship but as somebody that mastered his profession). Some of you might know him as the one that done the 1st ed for anime called Back. So than i started teh playlist. and the second song was his and it wasn't untill than that i was really stund by his music.
I knew about this before but i realzed just today. He is really unbeliaveble. So fare he is the only astist that i have and it remids me so much of the commercial american/europian music that i hate so much but with al the little ticks he adde he managed to make it sound so differantly. I really love his music, its nothing like most of azian artist,  i feel so close to his music yet so far.  anyway if you have a chance to gat a song or two from him i really recomand you get it.

oh and a history statemant aobut him. all people remembering of the "the brilliant green", "meister" is an alias for Ryo Matsui who is also "the brilliant green"1s gutarist.

There are some anime news^^ "Gunslinger girl" is suppose to continue. I have seen only half of the first part but what i've heard form other people and what i've seen this is just great^^
Source: (originally from one of our sites)
 http://www.mmv.co.jp/company/movie/070530/13_l.html

And "Bleach"... yup teh second movie is coming... can't wait... well Memories of Nobody more or less sucked (it seemed like cutoff from anime) but still i want ot see it... though its kind of said that you're not able to get any more info from the official site (http://www.bleach-movie.com/) but what can you do about it...

and what about me and my life... well i'm more or less studying   or at leas i should... i failed one exame so i'll need ot study all summer to repair that one mistake (its to complicaded for me to explain)... so don't really expact a lot from me this summer-.-

omg omg... the tracklist from he circus CD (the NEW FictionJunction CD that will come out in a few weeks) changed.

its still sad not to see Yakusoku on the list but stilll here is the newest list:

01. circus
02. aikoi
03. Silly-Go-Round
04. blessing
05. 荒野流転　～Full Size Mix
06. よろこび
07. 光の砂漠
08. romanesque ～Full Size Mix
09. ピアノ
10. 六月は君の永遠
11. 焔の扉
12. angel gate
 
bonus DVD (tentative):
01. Silly-Go-Round
02. 荒野流転
03. romanesque (single version)

This is actually known for quite some time, but i decided to post this here anyway - i know that there is not a lot of people watching my poor blog as i'm to lazy to update it (and i have some serious problems in my RL) - but still.

... emmm... its just a short monolog about ... mucic^^

Oh well just found out that nobody will ever read my entries... i know its my fault as i still hate to write like that...
anyway to sum up the word that will follow^^
its more or less about my interests^^.... something thats is a bit to much to put in boigraphy and something i like to talk about.

So i finally realized that i'm sick of my internet inactivity. I hate it.  I'm not talking about general inactivity. Oh i'm visiting a lot of forums and other stuff. but i'd just like to state my opinion somewhere without fighting. i tried to do that on some forums, but oh... well sooner or later you start arguing about everything. Mostly because you have to deal with the same people.
Oh just leave it-.-
So whats the point of this meaningless entry...  i decided to tell my opinion here. I'll play with this account and say some stupid or smart things^^

just to make you prepared for it... i'll talk aobut Japanese music and mangas occasionally about some animes too^^

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